life post~~~

today i am going to the casino with my mom and dad for my birthday (21!) and i believe my grandma is also coming. 

some lady my mom works with gave me $20 for the casino whih is cool since i don’t like her.

i’m excited for dinner and gambling and drinking with my family, it’s gonna be a weird fun time!

so thats my friday.

my saturday though is the kicker.

i am going to the drive in movie theatre with the lovely brittany who likes my kisses ‘too much’ she says, which is adorable and makes me want to kiss her more. c:

so yeah, WWEEEEEKKKEENNNNDDDD PPLLLAANNNSSSS

omg and NADIA COMES HOME THIS WEEKEND OMG DA BABEY IS COMING BACK!!!

I WANT A CIGARETTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

i love giving hickies. 

i started to feel

the weight of you

and all of your

anger

pain

humility

and abuse 

on my pale broad shoulders

and then i 

think to myself

why? why? why?

these are not my own,

not my problems to 

weigh me down-

anymore.

and now i’m done;

done with your

using

and abusing

of what was once a 

best friend

is no longer anything

but a memory. 

i crave cuddles

of soft, genuine

happy thoughts.

i’d like it if

the lips of lust

kissed the lips of my own mouth.

if the air of confidence

winded my air

i would breathe it in.

perhaps

if one day i 

decided to love

it would be okay. 

for my birthday i would please like 

  • birthday sex
  • 12 bottles of pink moscato
  • a red velvet cupcake
  • and to be surrounded by friends

maybe i’ll just stop smoking weed tomorrow. yeah. 

tomorrow